Grace In the Middle

*I am so excited to share this post with you today from my friend, Alicia Bruxvoort. If you’ve ever found yourself wondering if you’ll make it to the finish line of the race God’s call you to run this will be like a cool cup of water that hydrates your soul  …

 

She is slumped on the couch all grumpy and mad, her lips pursed in a dramatic pink pout.

“Why didn’t you name ME Elizabeth Grace?” my littlest girl asks as she punctuates her big sister’s name with a hiss of frustration.

I set down the laundry basket I’m lugging through the living room and turn my head toward my four-year-old complainer.

“What?”

“I sa-a-a-a-id, why didn’t I get Lizzy’s name?”

Her blue eyes churn indignant like a thundercloud on a hot summer’s day, and my fiery fifth-child crosses her arms in front of her chest in a theatric harrumph to accentuate her dismay.

I bite my lip in restraint, try not to laugh at the female fanfare spilling from my dramatic diva, and I shuffle to the couch where my preschooler sits sulking.

I  push back those straggly blonde bangs hanging haphazard across her forehead and slump lower on the cushions so we can perch head to head.

“I didn’t name you Elizabeth Grace,” I murmur gently in her ear, “Because when you were tucked in my tummy, God gave me the name Magdalene Hope.”

I let my words dangle long and quiet in the air, the sound of Maggie’s sniffled breathing ticking off the silent seconds. Then I take my little one’s hand and gently rub my thumb across her palm.  “And once God whispered that name to my heart, I knew that’s exactly who you were going to be. Our one and only Maggie Hope.”

My strong-willed girl raises an eyebrow and sighs, her vexation melting into sadness. “But I just want Grace in my middle, too,” she explains. “Right between Maggie Moo and Bwuxfort…”

She slaughters our fine Dutch surname, adds that silly pet name to the mix, but her gaze is so earnest that I’m not even tempted to giggle.

Instead I pull my littlest one onto my lap and rock her ever so slightly on my knees.  And as I rest my chin on her tangle-haired-head, I understand her wish.

Grace in the middle.  Who doesn’t need that?

No matter where life on this earth begins or how quickly it ends, we all need a little grace in the middle.

Beginning with purpose? That’s how we were made.

Ending in joy? Our Savior promises that.

But making it through middle? That’s a different story.

The middle is where hours creep long and the view wanes dim. It’s where the starting block feels like a distant memory and the finish line looms like an impossible dream.

The middle can douse our dreams, derail our zeal, and diminish our faith.

It can make us desperate. For mercy. For hope. For grace.

When the baby’s teething and the toddler’s tantrum-ing, we need grace in the middle.

When the dishes pile high and the laundry’s run wild, we need grace in the middle.

When our souls are empty and our calendars are filled, when our doubts are noisy and our accolades are quiet, we need grace in the middle.

When dinner’s burning and our patience has gone up in smoke, when our best isn’t good enough and our worst is magnified, we need grace in the middle.

When our marriage is faltering, when a friend has betrayed, when we want to stay in bed instead of face another day …

Grace in the middle.

When our teenager has missed curfew, when the cancer continues to grow, when our bank account is a drizzle and our tears a steady stream; we need grace in the middle.

When a cloud has covered the moon and the sun has yet to rise; right in the middle of the darkness, we need grace.

Grace to take one more step, to utter one more prayer, to risk rejection one more time.

Grace to choose gratitude instead of grumbling, hope instead of despair, faith instead of faltering.

Right there in the middle is where we need Jesus most of all.

We linger long on the couch, me and my girl who wants a new name.

We rock and cuddle and listen to the patter of rain on the window, the hum of the washing machine a floor below.

And instead of offering my mopey Maggie a lecture on the grandeur of her given name, I simply hold her right there in that middle place of wishing for something different and trying to accept what really is.

And this mom living somewhere between my beginning and my end reminds my littlest girl of one simple truth (Because sometimes we just need to say it aloud for our own road-weary souls) —

There is only One Name worthy of our wishing, one name deserving of our dreams.

And when we keep that name in the middle of our madness, He offers hope in our beginning, glory in our end, and grace for every moment in-between.

Jesus. Just Jesus.

Out of His fullness, we have all received grace on top of grace.” John 1:16 (TLV)

Alicia Bruxvoort

A writer, speaker, and abundant life seeker, Alicia Bruxvoort is passionate about helping women experience the life Jesus promised when he declared, “I’ve come so that you might have life and have it to the full” (John 10:10). Alicia writes for Proverbs 31 Ministries and The M.O.M. Initiative and has the privilege of encouraging women across the globe with the good news of Christ. When she’s not writing or speaking, Alicia can be found managing mini-van mayhem or scaling mountains of laundry in Holland, MI, where she lives a life of happy chaos with her husband and five children. Alicia would love to meet you at her “home on the web” at The Overflow! www.aliciabruxvoort.net

Alicia would love to give away a copy of this beautiful coloring book … She loves to color in this book with her daughter and wants to share it with you, too! Enter to win by leaving a comment by Friday, May 20!

Amazing Grace coloring book

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24 Comments

  1. In the middle is where we need to dig deep for Jesus! Amen. He will see us through. We can finish with his help. We are not alone. Alicia those are inspirational words and I bet your little one appreciated the special time with Mom too!

  2. I am right there in the middle where I need Jesus the most in the season of my life right now. My mother has stage 4 liver cancer,breast cancer,and cancer in her lymph nodes under her arm. My husband has been without a job going on 7 months now. God’s Grace will get me through the difficult season in my life.

  3. Grace in the middle – oh my, yes how we need it every day. Such a wonderful and encouraging post Alicia. Thank you.

  4. I want to believe all His promises. For the longest time, I believe he COULD bless me but not necessarily would. Now, as my faith grows and matures, I feel compelled to call on His promises. To believe they ARE all available to me. I want that abundant life. Not the good enough life. John 10:10 indeed.

    1. Lisa I think so many of us think the same way. You put it so beautifully. Amen!

  5. Amazing message! We all need to remember that grace in the middle. Lysa had said in her book Unglued to say the name of Jesus when your feeling stressed and now, thanks to your devotion, I will add a new word with that…Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Grace, Grace, Grace…which will equal calm, calm, calm.

  6. Thank you , Thank you so much for those wonderful words. By the end I had tears flowing down my face. I’m going through a very difficult time right now, and i’m so glad I read your post just before getting ready for bed tonight. I will be going to bed very happy tonight… Jesus is the way and He shows the way through His grace..

    1. Praise the Lord, Anna! I’m positive this was God’s perfect timing to encourage you!

  7. My sweet husband was told that he had 6 months to live due to pancreatic cancer over 6 years ago. It’s only because of Gods grace and provision that we are filled with joy, faith, and hope- not to mention thankfulness!! My husband is a miracle because of our beloved Jesus!

    1. Thank you for such an amazing testimony, Jeri! I know it will encourage so many to trust Jesus and His grace!

  8. This message was a reminder for me today as I struggle to get up in the morning to face another day of the same chaos. As I struggle to think of why He would see me as important. I need the Grace and the reminder. Thank you.

    1. You are so important to God, Carrie, and so is everything you will do today. I know those days well, but I pray today you experience God’s presence and power in new and exciting ways. Thank you for sharing, Carrie!

  9. How amazing that our Father knows what we need. Grace is a powerful reminder of His extravagant love for me. How often I need His grace in the middle! Thank you for those words in written form.

  10. What a lovely, sacred moment you’ve shared with us! Like another commenter before me, I was in tears and felt Jesus and His grace washing over me as I was reassured that He knows my circumstance and my heart.
    God bless you, Ladies!

    1. Such a beautiful picture you painted, Jenn. Thank you for sharing such a precious encounter with our sweet Savior, Jesus! It’s great to hear from you.

  11. Thanks for sharing. The following sentence stood out: ” Grace to choose gratitude instead of grumbling, hope instead of despair, faith instead of faltering.” Ephesians 2:8 ” For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves,it is the gift of God.”

  12. What a wonderful reminder in this post today. Thank you for your encouraging words!

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