**I’m so excited to share my “kitchen table on the internet” with my friend Amy Carroll today. If you’ve ever tried to be perfect or pursue perfect, I know Amy’s words will bless you …
How my heart ached as I walked through my much loved, empty house. Now, instead of being filled with the laughter of little boys, the whispers of love between my husband and me, and the barking of my rambunctious dog, the rooms echoed with only my footsteps.
The moving trucks had already left, taking the bits and pieces of my life with them, but I remained alone. And I grieved.
I loved that house, not just for its antique beauty, but for the hopes and dreams that had thrived there. This was the house I thought I’d watch my boys leave when they headed to college. This was the house where I thought I’d play with my grandchildren. I planned to grow gray there, so I poured my heart and soul into making it a home.
That house held my dreams of the perfect life.
But God had different plans. My husband Barry got a new job in a different city, and I found myself moving away from a home, from friends and from a church family. Suddenly, my perfect plan for a perfect life seemed marred. Things looked very imperfect to me.
For a moment, a seed of resentment tried to sprout in my heart. Barry seemed to be getting his perfect life—a better job with lots of excitement attached—while I was giving up my vision of perfection.
“What about me?!” my heart cried.
Gently God whispered this familiar passage from His Word into my heart,
‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’” Jeremiah 29:11
My rebellious heart rested in this comfort. God would never change my life’s plans without the best for me in mind. He didn’t forget me when He gave my husband a new opportunity. He was still in control, and His plans for me are truly perfect.
Are you wrestling today?
Maybe you’re wondering if God has forgotten you in your circumstances because they sure aren’t perfect. Maybe your perfect life has been shattered by loss or rejection or pain. Maybe you’re hopeless or unsure if God sees you.
I understand. I’d like to take your hand and assure you. God sees you. He knows your dreams for the perfect life. But He has a plan that is greater than anything we can dream up or pursue ourselves.
Only when we end our pursuit of perfection can God begin His perfecting work in us.
I walked out of my beloved home that day without knowing what was ahead but filled with the peace of knowing that God was with me. He shapes the life that is perfect for me and perfects me in the process.
Amy Carroll is a speaker, writer, and International Initiatives Coordinator with Proverbs 31 Ministries. Amy and her husband live in Holly Springs, NC with a bossy miniature dachshund. You can find her on any given day texting her two sons at college, typing at her computer, reading a book, or trying to figure out one more alternative to cooking dinner. Share life with Amy at www.amycarroll.org and find out more about her speaker coaching services at www.nextstepspeakerservices.org.
Amy is giving away a copy of her book Breaking Up with Perfect here this week. Leave a comment by Friday, April 22, to enter to win. If you’re living in warp-speed, simply say “I’m breaking up with perfect!” in the comments.
Have you ever had a plan that didn’t work out? Do you feel like you’re living your call? Join Katy at the She Laughs women’s conference May 13-14 in Mesquite, Tx. We’ll give you a place to rest and recharge while we help you navigate life and connect to God’s call.